Photography by Kelsie Emm Photography
[Don't even mind the fact that these pictures are from like, December?! I completely didn't realize I never posted this outfit. So, sorry bout it.]
"Infertility" was never a word used in my vocabulary before the age of 22, hell probably even 23. I got off birth control three years ago and we have obviously been struggling ever since. The funny thing is, for the longest time, we never considered ourselves to be "infertile" or "struggling to get pregnant", we just thought it was normal that it was taking a while. I had been on birth control for years, so I was sure my body was just balancing out and that it would take some time. If you read my first blog post about our struggles, you probably already know that after about a year we decided to go to an infertility doctor. We were still a little in denial that we had "issues". After a few failed rounds of clomid and lots and lots of tears, it hit me. We really do have issues. That felt like the breaking point for me.
Lately, things have kind of been on hold while Taylor is on clomid. It's kind of a little funny (you know, trying to find the humor in all of this!) that we started this whole thing with me being on clomid, and now roles have reversed and Taylor is on it! I'm hoping we can end this whole thing with clomid, too. We still have a couple more weeks to wait and see if the clomid is working for Taylor, and then we can finally figure out if we are able to do another IUI (intrauterine insemenation) or if we have to move on to IVF (in vitro fertilization) or adoption.
I truly never thought this would be my life--spending all of our savings on infertility treatments, researching adoption/IVF and deciding what the freak to do, putting my body through hell--it's really all way above my maturity level. ;) But such is life. Here we are, just trying to do this thang.